•i cant be hurt again. not again. itll be the end•
1 2835 minutes ago
•i wanna hang out this weekend but youre probably busy. lets be honest•
2 2436 minutes ago
•yesterday after school for two hours you bothered me about me sending nudes and you actually wanted them so goddamn bad. i dont know why. you were acting like a complete dick to me. but you were covering it with “i love you” “baby if we can open up all the way that means we can do this”. i wasnt going to do it. i said no several times. but in the moment no wasnt an option for you. then you had to go because you had a game and i needed to study. four hours go by. apparently you were thinking about what you said. while i was doing math equations for a test tomorrow. you texted me and apologized. and kept saying you treated me terribly and that you shouldnt have pestered me about that even after i said no multiple times. you felt so goddamn bad. so bad. you called yourself a horrible boyfriend who shouldnt have treated his amazing wonderful beautiful girlfriend like that. then you said whats in the screenshot and i agree you were acting like a dick. but listen. call him a bad dude if you want. i know my baby and i know the minute he said that he had to go. i know he felt bad. he felt so bad about trying to pressure me into doing it. thats what actually matters. he felt horrible to the point where he couldnt stop apologizing and saying that he wont ever treat me like this again. a trash boyfriend would just say sorry and leave it there. the actual difference between dirt (my ex) and gold (my baby)•
: SKETSA HATI
"Cukup sampai di sini, rasanya kita tak mungkin bisa terus bersisian. Kau terlalu indah untukku. Maaf..."
"lalu apa arti dari semua ini? Buat apa semua keindahan dan rasa manis yang telah kau tuangkan di hari-hariku? Kau telah lambungkan hatiku. Kau telah warnai setiap detik waktuku. Sekarang, mengapa kau tega lakukan ini? Padahal jika saja kau tau, ku masih menyimpan rasa manis dan keindahan dari coklat dan bunga yang pernah kau beri untukku. Bahkan, bunga itupun masih ku jaga penampakannya. Itu tak pernah sirna. Maafmu takkan pernah bisa hapus segala rasaku padamu"
"maafkan jika ku harus ucapkan maaf. Bagiku tak guna dengan jalinan semu kita ini. Ku tak mau kau terluka. Ku tak mau cinta dan sayangku menjadi narkoba bagimu. Ku tak mau kau tergantung padaku, manusia...."
"kau tega. Setelah ku begitu sayang dan cinta padamu, kau pergi..."
"itu yang ku tak mau. Janganlah begitu terlalu pada manusia. Kau kan kecewa. Kau harus belajar menerima, bahwa kita memang tak kan bisa terus bersisian di dunia. Karena memang tak ada yang abadi di dunia"
"Tapi... ku siap bersisian denganmu di surgaNYA dengan berbingkai kata halal... 😉"
Today makes a month.
Today I'm here to say it and not my mother.
I didn't leave for others to say it's been a month.
I might have wanted to end it all.
Suicide might have seemed to be the answer but,
Today I get to say I'm here. #suicideawareness#hope#imhere
I had died. but I revived, like an idiot.
Sorry for leaving them so long; My God, we are growing monumentally!
I love you all, I swear to you that I will soon bring many beautiful drawings that I hope you enjoy, I love you.
Mấy năm đi Đền đều gặp chú bán táo. Chú ý bán hàng duyên lắm nhé. Dù cũng hơi đanh đá.
Mùng 6 rồi, t cũng dọn hàng thôi.
Tổng kết là năm nay buôn bán chẳng được nhiều, ấy cơ mà t gặp được lắm người dễ thương lắm.
Túm lại là vui.
#tetthilamgi#funny#busyday#peace # #imhere#lucky