My lovely flowers and leaving card from the Wellbeing team. ❤🌼🌹 You guys are such a wonderful bunch of people and I will miss you loads 🙁 but stealing you as friends is better so it's not all bad! #friendslikefamily❤️😊 #movingon#onwardsandupwards👆
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• I was fine
• I was fine, did you catch that? I was?
• until you came alone and picked me upon your arms • you showed me heaven...
• you ended up becoming my happiness • and Iet you… that was my mistake …
• you wrote a note declaring your love for me... and I accepted it that was mistake number 2
• we exchanged phone numbers…
• just in a matter of time I poured my soul out to you and imbedded you with my flowers and my oh so green vines...I even included the roses…
• I took a risk and tore off my thorns so you wouldn’t get a cut and bleed
• i was the one who got multiple cuts and bled a whole pool of blood for you..
•ironic huh? • you had a secret knife in your pocket…
• and you cut my vines and tore all my flowers to bits
• until you left me with nothing…
S N O W D A Y ❄️🌨
We have 3 inches of snow! E and I are staying in today. Tidying, cleaning and getting organised for the estate agent coming tomorrow. We’re officially taking the first step to selling our first home and looking to upsize. It’s bittersweet; our home, lots of lovely memories, all of E’s first memories and where we brought her home but also a chance to make more memories hopefully with another little one! #mamaandbabye#motherhoodunplugged#motherhood#instamum#instablogger#snowday#movingon
"if you are given a chance
to revisit your past,
what is it that you would
never like to feel again?"
"i would prefer a cup of coffee
rather than facing
your intense questions" she chuckled
i held her hand
and pulled her back,
"you know the answer, don't you?"
a deep sigh escaped her.
"as a kid i always felt
can be hard for
someone like me
who doesn't know
when to stop loving"
her eyes dwell up
as she looks into mine.
my grip at her wrist tightened.. .
"but as i grew up, i realised
that i was wrong,
i realised people leave sooner or later,
even if you clutch
your life onto them and
there are few things
more haunting than a closure"
she paused to gulp the reality she was breathing.
"not having a moment to say goodbye
is what that hurts.
slow fades are much worse
when you cannot hold
the sand in your palms
that wants to escape.
every moment turns into
a regret of words left unsaid.
every night is a dilemma whether to or
not slam the door and lock it"
her hand trembled as she pulled
the fringes behind her ear.
"so there you go: i don't want to feel a fading love,
i can hug the deadliest of departures
but cannot bear
the weight of unbidden goodbyes"
shivers of awe run down my spine.
"care to join me for a coffee?
it might be tough, but i can try making
it with one hand this time"
i clutched it even tight! .
📷 : unknown
At this exact place, I realized that my life may just be constantly trying to find the balance of being alone and being with others. Too much of anything isn’t good, but how will I know when I’ve had enough? Honestly, I don’t think I’ll ever know. My feelings tend to subconsciously control and justify my actions, but because of some source, we can’t always do what we feel, and how we choose to deal with that is how we grow.
When moving on, it’s important to always remember your roots. Remind yourself that you are in this transitional moment, in this place and time because of your experiences. It may not feel right, but you’re exactly where you are supposed to be. Things happen for a reason - to make you stronger. Learn from your mistakes and grow in a direction where you become a better version of yourself. Don’t remain angry and bitter. Feel the anger, acknowledge it, and let it go. Love yourself first. Treat yourself. Compliment yourself. Allow yourself to be vulnerable. Be of use to others but don’t allow yourself to be used. You are perfect right where you are. Just trust it. 💫
📸 by @gabyduong
January 18th, 2018: 9 of Swords
This message is for anyone who reads this post 🔮✨ There is a need to move on from a situation, which I'm hearing is causing you 'unfulfillment', in an area of your life. If you can already relate to the first line of this message, I feel that you will also be able to resonate with the rest of the reading, in one of two ways. For a group of you, I'm sensing that you are in denial about a certain scenario. You are refusing to acknowledge the reality of it, and that you don't want to consider moving on. I'm sensing deep down, you feel quite alone and tired, and I'm picking up on some sadness and upset, too. If you can relate to this message, there is a need for acceptance, to see things clearly. I'm hearing, 'firm'. Try and find the strength and courage to leave behind a situation, that is not bringing you happiness. Yes, I feel that this situation once brought you joy, but I'm being told that you 'deserve better', and that you need to consider taking that first step in moving on. Know that you are being guided and protected by the universe in letting go, and that there is no need to suffer for any longer. For others of you, I'm hearing that you are 'worrying' about moving on, and I sense that you are currently at a stalemate, thinking about an unsatisfactory situation very frequently. I also feel that you have not taken any action as of yet, and that you feel bleak at the prospect of moving forward. I'm also hearing, 'relocate'. Some of you are considering to physically move away. If you can resonate with this part of the message, I'm being told that, 'you have done all that you can do'. I'm also hearing, 'ignored' and 'left out' - you are also being shunned in some way too, that is causing you unhappiness. Don't beat yourself up. There is a need to accept the situation as it is, along with the difficulties you have been facing, instead of fighting against them. This is the confirmation, that I sense that you may have been looking for: let go, to allow something better to come along. Making the brave decision to do so will introduce peace into your life, and significantly decrease your, I'm hearing, 'torment'.