Life seems so fleeting and life seems so fragile.
From looking my babies in their eyes, coming to grips with how little control I have over the gift of life, to watching my husband hear that his own father has but weeks to live, life is so delicate. All I can come to acknowledge as I consider this truth is that every moment matters. Every day that we have is full of purpose and opportunity.
In this picture I hold in my arms the man I love, my best friend, the father of my children, a child of God, a leader, and one of the strongest men I know. His faith is strong, unwavering, and I am honored to be by his side.
I know his faith that lives so vibrantly within him, the very faith that is rooted into every essence of his being, has so largely been fostered by his father.
The fur that I’m wearing in this picture was at one time my grandmother’s coat. I never met her, though I carry with me her name. This coat that was made to specifically fit her now fits me like a glove. I know I share her very figure, and along with that I know I have been given some of her spunk and her poise.
These people that we love do live in us. They are forever a part of who we are, our story. And this brings me such joy, such honor. It fills my eyes with tears and my heart with an honest sadness, knowing that life here simply does come to an end.
The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord. These are the words my husband spoke just hours ago.
With all of this on my heart, I just pray.
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A figure I never, in a #million years, would or could have imagined seeing when I stepped onto the #weight#scales.
20 Stone / 126 KG
Seeing it written down it feels more like it's about someone else
I'm upset, angry and scared.
#Upset that I have let lots of people down, my #Wife and 2 #Children and my parents being the most. I'd never forgive myself if my elderly parents passed away and their lasting image of me was as I am now, how sad would that be for them, worrying if I will be around much longer to #care and look after their #grandchildren#Angry with myself that I have allowed myslef to get to this point in my life, where I am not physically capable of playing with my children when they ask, feeling out of breath at every step. Where has the old me gone, the one who ran half marathons for fun, played rugby and football for the county. I look in the mirror and it sickens me to see what I have become.
#Scared that there is a huge possibility that I may go to sleep at night and not wake up again.
There is no denying that there is a massively long, and more than likely bumpy road ahead of me, but I'm determind to get myself back into as good a shape as I can in as short a space of time possible. I have time on my hands, so it's now time to use it wisely and change myself from the inside, out.
Look around you today - Your purpose attracts after its kind . Even in marriage - Some people are doing NOTHING and yet they are busy looking for a help meet ( a wife) to join them in doing NOTHING . . .. #truth#purpose#vision#wife#marriage#relationships ps . OLD video 😊cos I know what some are thinking right now ... 🤣.